Stars, Sunsets, and Hollow Seeds

It always feels like too soon to give up on love

Even when the warning bells go off

Even when I’m the only one trying

Well, maybe you are? Kind of?

I can’t even admit it to myself now

Because then that would mean defeat

Even when your pangs of silence, my heart they plough

I still look over your past receipt

A late night three hour drive just to make sure I get home safe

A sunset view where you kissed me, and a few romantic dates

You were smart, kind, thoughtful and funny

Now I swear I still hear your laughter in the distant hush

Like many before I feel like you cut me out

And even worse you did so in a rush

From once a week to once a month, our visits have gone brief

Though that has given me time to explore others

For you, my soul still grieves

For my heart, can’t even consider others

Not until every attempt is exhausted with you

Not even the distance in words and length can be enough

I need to find the closure within you

Maybe that makes me crazy? Or a persistent romantic with rose colored lens?

But I won’t give up on love

Not until it fully, cuts off its own hands

Until then, I’ll still hold it’s pinky, I’ll grip it with all my might

Even though you might be wrong for me

My persistent winning spirit tells me

for you, I know I’m right

But I know now that’s the wrong mindset

And It’s time I let go of my fight

How can a flower bloom with hollow seeds?

Love is a forking path, not a one-way street

I should want to win the person that wants to win me

Start to hold them in my heart when they’ve  already taken me

I’m looking for a battle that won’t always end in loss

For after each heartbreak, some sanity it costs

But I guess in all love there’s pain sooner or later

For grief, is its only true enemy and hope its only debater

At the end of the day, love is not just about holding tight

Its a leap into darkness, with the hope of light

I’m jumping out now into your ebony sky

Hoping for stars to cling on, but starting to cry

For only with darkness ahead, it seems time to give in

And only then, looking down with teary eyes, I realize that the light was within

There I was shining the whole entire time

Looking for light without even noticing mine

Then, I turn around, seeing so many more stars behind

I’m not giving up, but instead shifting to what deserves to be mine